i've been

meaning to talk to you (that is write here). But i don't even talk to myself that much.
Summer is kinda lame. I'm feeling alone in a way. I'm not doing anything other than watching tv shows! But i heard that nobody is really doing anything, as we all thought we will, along with the excitement of having finished this freaking year, at last.
Oh well. It's ok. Not that bad. Oh. I spent 95€ in underwear and clothes today!

FREE KIDS!!!

Not as in, i'm giving away kids for free. As in, let them be in their own world!
There was this little girl on the bus, with her grandmother or something. I don't know since when i'm so sensitive about kids, it has to be a book i read, but that's not the point. The girl said that she wants to get married to this boy. Her grandmother was all like 'ah, you're too young to have a wedding! What kind of a wedding will that be?!' And saying stuff like 'You don't know much about marriage, that's why you're saying it... When you'll grow up and learn, then you'll think it over, ha ha ha'
It pissed me off! I really wanted to talk to that girl then and tell her that she's right, and if she thinks that she should marry this boy, then she should.
The thing is... They're telling young kids stuff they shouldn't. No matter why this thought came to her mind, it's nobody's right to tell her she's wrong! Even if she thought there were pink fluffy aliens on the bus, nobody should have the right to tell her 'that's never going to happen. You see, pink fluffy aliens don't exist.' Kids should have the right to believe what they want to believe, what they think is right, and not getting into stuff like 'ah, my mom said this is right and this is wrong'.
Yeah, sometimes this has to happen, cause it's not right to hit other kids. But even in this case, it should be more important understanding why you shouldn't hit other kids rather than just saying 'that's wrong'.

Become his cow with just one tablet

Oh kay... Well that was one of those creative things. I cut words from the paper and it's really fun making sentences with them. And in case you're wondering, no. I have nothing better to do. Actually i realized that i don't know how to use free time anymore. Cause i'm supposed to have homework all the time. And i freak out in weekends! I end up doing nothing all day cause i still have the feeling i have to waste time and avoid doing 'something'.
Pointless comic: http://www.explosm.net/comics/1139/

Yeah... It's 1 am and i'm doing nothing. I have to wake up tomorrow. Blah.

And now, I'm going to the greatest city on Earth! Goodbye home, hello Rome!
That was a quote from Lizzy McGuire. And i'm actually going to Rome next month. It's weird. I don't even wanna go there, i'm just going because someone else is going too... AND, of course, cause it's the last trip with school ever and-- AH. I don't want to leave school. It creeps me out. Enough of this, though.

I'm not really awake.
So long, suckers (i can't help it, i say that all the time. It took over my brain)

La neige!

It snowed!! Wow... I missed a test, 2 days of school and one lesson at φροντιστήριο! Hooray! It was great, though i didn't do anything but sitting here for 2 whole days. Oh well =)

Random updates, just because

1. All i want to do is lie around and watch the Simpsons all day.
2. Lately, i've been having dreams about my ex and i have no idea why. It's not even like i think about the whole thing. Last night i woke up cursing myself cause it happened again. I actually woke up thinking 'enough already!'
3. I felt the need to learn about Buddism. And i'm reading stuff about it.

Not like it surprises me, though...

I just don't get why someone would smoke. I really don't get why someone would start smoking at 17, too. I don't get many other things too, about it. Ok, so Capsule started smoking like 2 months ago and i didn't know until some weeks ago, when she all of a sudden told me not to comment, took a packet out of her bag and started smoking. The reason i didn't know is, that she can't stand me lecturing her... We actually had a whole conversation and she was annoyed that i care that much. She said there are so many things around us that are not good and she doesn't see me complaining about them. What annoys me the most is that she is convinced that i'm just closed-minded, and i hate smoking so much because i was raised 'with those beliefs'! I mean, seriously? I was coughing my lungs out the other day that i was around her smoking and she said it's just all in my head and if i weren't that convinced that it's bad i wouldn't mind that much...
...Anyway. I actually don't talk about it (i even feel like it's a taboo sometimes). But it does bug me, even when she doesn't do it in front of me. And i can't tell her... I mean she comes to hug me and i feel really bad. I hate the smell so much that i end up trying to avoid her! I find it hard to look at her sometimes, and it's not like i'm thinking of stuff,-- it just makes me feel like running away! Not as in she'll try to make me smoke too (she wouldn't, duh) or as in my friend is a punk, just... i feel like i'll die if i breath that shit.

I'm officially obsessed with little notebooks.
And hardcovers! x)